504 Plan - The Gift of Slumber

Put out the lights,
and now forever will be here
just two more moments of death,
then all this sickness dissapears,
into a blackness,
and now ill see this all go home,
and take its time with killing me,
this death is painless and so slow
and words were ringing through my heart,
and tearing open wounds apart,
like spanning lifetimes spent within,
its not what i wanted,
sleep isnt very far from now,
a gift sending all this out some how,
now its all over and ive gone away.
im telling myself this is real,
how hard was all this world to feel,
im thinking all these lies will help,
the reasons why i fear myself
all these words that i write,
i spend weeks of saddened nights,
to take my heart down to ink,
and try to stay awake for this,
take my heart with you,
ill never know tears from you,
and ill kick and stay awake,
i am slumbers gift to take
and words were never more chemical
just one more peaceful wilting breath

504 Plan - Kristen Beam

On the morning
i woke up and screamed out loud
my god what happened to the life
that once made me so proud
thoughts of dying
thoughts of living past today
they scream through my head openly
in an open minded state
now im stuck here
bloody flesh and bones and skin
its not what happened to my mind
this is just the mess im in
cant i break, all these chains
im sad
where were you, i need you
im sad
we could be, wait and see
im sad
but of course im not, sane again
im sad when you werent old enough to choose
can i take that
what i want back
can i take back what i deserve,
or will i be left untill,
everyone is dead
what will i
take for my self
can i take back what i deserve,
or will i be left until
everyone is dead
now im stuck here,
bloody flesh bones and skin
its not what ive done to my life
its just the mess im in
when i break free
from the things that hold me here
encumbered by, the sweet embrace
of many well earned tears
i can speak now,
from my heart and to my head
im losing touch,
im holding on to corpses of words said
cant i break, all these chains
im sad
where were you, i need you
im sad
we could be, wait and see
im sad
but of course im not, sane again
im sad when you werent old enough to choose
can i take that
what i want back
can i take back what i deserve,
or will i be left untill,
everyone is dead
what will i
take for my self
can i take back what i deserve,
or will i be left until
everyone is dead

504 Plan - Morning Sickness

In my life,
no memory could have matched
the day that i
saw her once at last
eyes so true
a face that could stop time
can i lie
and say we never met
how can this happen is this real
happiness is all that i can feel
all i know is what i see
all your tears have taken over me
when i woke up i could see
an empty blanket staring back at me
i cant beleive it is this true
all my happiness was just a dream
when i woke up,
a broken hearted me was still in love

504 Plan - Skyward Smiles

One day of this,
the setting sun brings life
to all the things i have missed,
can we just wait,
for other days to throw ourselfs
on tracks that hold to this,
take back these moments
that i have just spent with you,
speak to me loud and speak the truth,
will all this love you give
take me to hold me tight,
your skyward smiles bring me life,
where were my actions leading then,
and couldnt i know,
and didnt i have to hold your hand
and didnt i...
look at this sky,
so many things i wish i could
have said to you tonight,
take all these things i feel
and throw them back at me,
our love burned up and fell asleep,
can i just write these words
down as theyre pouring out,
and scream to you straight
from my head will all the things
i did with you happen again,
or did this sky help me to live

504 Plan - Cancer

Infected deep inside,
prosthetic light, falls over my eyes,
and these words were spoke in fear,
catacombs of rotten smiles,
did i mention that im real,
all this light shines through me,
i ride reflections in your eyes,
and notice im not broken,
happiness was linked with pain,
cancer made me do this,
fields of fallen angels cry,
while i was singing,
break these walls,
i break my hands,
the lies that ive been told again,
elastic feelings tend to snap and then break,
the world burned down without my help

504 Plan - Classrooms and Hallways

It was a cold day when
johnny he tried his luck
they said watch out for yourself
you dont give a fuck
so he took that hit
and threw away his entire life
now everyone will stand around
and watch him die
he cant see he cant speak
i dont care if im killin me
he dont care whats out there
they dont see what happens to him
he cant see he cant speak
he cant speak
i dont care if im killin me
they dont care whats out there
slow chain of mistakes till hes gone,
its killin him
he dont care, whats out there
what he dont see wont hurt him
in his stare
life thrown away,
life fillled with pain,
slow chain of mistakes,
now hes dyin
he cant see he cant speak,
what he dont see wont hurt him to save me
life thrown away,
life filled with pain slow chain of mistakes,
now hes dyin
now they sit and remember the days
when johnny used to wander
through their classrooms and hallways
they say oh god what a shame
its so sad
when human life is just wasted away
now everyone will sit
and remember the days,
when johnny used to wonder
through their hallways
they sit and say my god
what ever happened to him
i remember pickin on him when i was a kid

504 Plan - Fathead

now that all this smoke is clearing,
the plan has been destroyed
and im back here,
in puddles of what was my moon light,
the only thing that kept me safe from tears,
and pictures of you race through my head,
and now its time for me to go back home,
in my head, im left alone.
and now that we're over this hill,
these arguements will all be gone again
the eyes i love see through you,
and telling me this bridge is broken,
wont help me not to hurt when i see you
and nothing will grow here again,
and now this is the end of something
that made me smile lightning bolts inside,
and tears are not enough to heal this,
my heart will reconnect inside my mind,
but in my chest theres hollow holes now,
and never will i feel the same again,
these empty holes have dried me out
and now that we're over this hill,
these arguements will all be gone again
the eyes i love see through you,
and telling me this bridge is broken,
wont help me not to hurt when i see you
and nothing will grow here again,
take my heart and keep it with you
ill never know another love again
these days i spent with you are telling
the story of a broken hearted kid
and all my life ive never noticed
the rotten taste of heart ache now i know
what it is, and who its for
and now that we're over this hill,
these arguements will all be gone again
the eyes i love see through you,
and telling me this bridge is broken,
wont help me not to hurt when i see you
and nothing will grow here again

504 Plan - Insult to Injury

Why am i so good at bein a fool,
why is it so hard for me to realize it,
i try to remember the good things i say,
its hard to, its hard,
its hard to do,
im not a poet just an idiot,
tryin to make my blind way through the days,
dont talk to me,when i am saddened,
its hard to,
its hard to do,
when im alone in my room
i just think of the days that i sat sad and tired,
when im alone the only thing for me is you and everything you do,
im lazy and stupid,
but i cant get enough of you lately
its changin each day,
the reasons i be with you i just wanna be right here,
why am i so damn hard just to please,
can any one make any sense out of me
i try remember the good things ive done,
its hard to,
its hard to do