Absurd Conflict - Sex for a Few Marks

Real sex of your imaginations, under your own direction?
Throw away the mask of a satisfied husband,
Gratified by the grey of commonplace sex?
You have money and pleasure can be bought
Sex for a few marks
There is no tabu

The choice is large
To grasp something young
Fragile and naive
Shake by excitement , the passion can't be hidden

You're holding her
She is yours now
Your bloodless brain does not register

You've got only one goal
Delight, pleasure, ecstasy
A total satisfaction at any cost
Who cares about the hell she's going through

You've bought her, the money wipes out all respect
The school girl is yours for a few moments

What do you feel like?
Oral? Anal? Piss or Sado?
She has to submit
You've bought her

You stink of sweat, you gaze into her face, how old is she - ten?
Your daughter is the same age
No! No! This is different, you've bought this one
Just like the others
Who cares about who sold her to you - a brother, a school mate
or fucking parents
Who cares, you've paid for it, she's yours

Absurd Conflict - Till the End

My faithful companion
I've lost my way once again
A prisoner of darkness
I let you down my friend
The time has come to testify
All the feelings I've been holding back

How many times must a man fall down
How many dreams have to fall to the ground
Maybe I was born to wander
I have no high hopes any longer

So tell me my friend
Just where does it end
Will nothing free me
From this hell I'm living in

I cannot blame myself anymore
I've been beaten and accused before
Well I took some bad advice
And I paid too high a price

How can some people have the nerve
Hell hasn't frozen but it's on the verge
It has gone way past the point of greed
How many life times shall we need
How many times must a man fall down
How many dreams have to fall to the ground
Is nothing ever gonna free me
From this hell I'm living in

Why so much pain
I cry for forgiveness
I'm a destitude man
Who still remains

It's so hard to explain
Before I leave this world

The time has come to testify
All the feelings I've been holding back
It's time - to set them free
It's time - to set them free

I cannot blame myself anymore
I've been beaten and accused before
Well I took some bad advice
And I paid t oo high a price

Absurd Conflict - Daddy's Love

Fear and pain - Pain and fear
There's nothing else I feel...

Why? Daddy why? You used to tell me
how much you loved me
you used to stroke my hair and cheeks
we used to laugh and play together... and now...
Why? Daddy why? Daddy why?
Perversity, deviation
Sadism and sexual aggression
A poor child's soul is desolate
In the utmost corner of mind

Childish trust and innocence recklessly trodden in dust
The most brutal and sadistic display of parental feelings

Distrust, frustration - Fear and numbness
Every sign of affection - A bribe for my silence
My joy has disappeared forever - In fear of his return
Memories hurt - as a knife - sinking into flesh

Daddy, daddy, it's me! It's me!
I'm afraid of you. It hurts. Please, oh please stop!'

Daddy, daddy, it's me! It's me!
I'm afraid of you. It hurts. Please, oh please stop!

Why? Daddy why? Daddy why? You used to say
you loved me
you used to stroke my hair and cheeks
we used to laugh and play together... and now...
Why? Daddy why? Daddy why?

Distrust, frustration - Fear and numbness
Every sign of affection - A bribe for my silence
My joy has disappeared forever - In fear of his return
Memories hurt - as a knife - sinking into flesh

Absurd Conflict - Heroism

I don't know who you are and what you can do
I don't suspect how empty are your threats
I don't even know the reasons that lead you to do this
I know just one thing, that I can hope for your tolerance
I am old and powerless, so come and face me

Come, if you're bold enough, to rob an impuissant
Come, if you consider it heroism, I'll put up no resistance
You know that
You know a poor man like me is helpless, without effort
So come on hero

I will just look helplessly at your depravity
I will look at you resigned and dread the worst
I am old and powerless - an easy prey for a cad like you
Try to draw a knife or a gun hidden in your pocket

I can't fight back with my bare hands
You know that, you know I'm fucking scared,
On the verge of my breakdown

You criminal scumbag
The cash you took me,
Is a key to jail
I hope, you'll see th e world
from the other side of the bars
I am old and powerless
You know that and abuse it - to the end!

Absurd Conflict - Point of Crisis

Standing in front of the mirror
An avalanche of searing emotions
Terrified and thoughtless
A subject to condemn

Feeling alone
Fearing away
Terrified and hopeless
A subject to regret
Energy of the young body
Pulsing under the mental
Closure, panicking within
Failure - the cardinal
Cause, devoid of motivation
The emptiness inside your mind
The obstacles drain you of spirit

Drain you of spirit

No thoughts, devoid of reactions
More desperation breeds
Nailing me down

No vision, I drown in social void
It still remains
Nailing me onto this cross

The struggle inside is pathetic

There is noone, there is no word, there is no way to set me free
There is noone, there is no word, there is no way to let me be
There is noone, there is no word, there is no hope - obscurity
There is noone, there is no word, there is no ho pe - eternally

The lack of friends, to comprehend
To listen, to find caressing words
I reach my hand to the void again
The beat of the young heart condemned

There is noone, there is no word, there is no way to set me free
There is noone, there is no word, there is no way to let me be
There is noone, there is no word, there is no hope - obscurity
There is noone, there is no word, there is no hope :

No thoughts, devoid of reactions
More desperation breeds
Nailing me down

No vision, I drown in social void
It still remains
Nailing me onto this cross

Absurd Conflict - A Tragedy Concept

Hidden in creativity
Manifestation of a noble concept
Shaping up within a sensitive mind
The message that will remain unheard
Misunderstood?
Rejected?
Communication objectiveless

The spirit speaks forth alive
The motives are strong and fair

To fly

It's easy to regard one as mad
The only support you will find within society

Thoughts that breed in your mind
Dance on the edge of a nervous breakdown

The stream breaks against the deep sunk stones of rigid wisdom
The drops shine in the sun, ideas left falling down
It does little good trying to harness mind so eager
Before we find it we shall lose something we never had

It's easy to regard one as mad
The only support you will find within societyThe message remains unheard
Creating counter-concept of human tragedy

The river flows sublime
Frolicking over the rocks
That meant little hindrance once
The final rhyme is yours - to fly and fall

The pent up visions aimlessly seek realization
Look back and lose your confidence being so naive
The substances that back your mind with artificial optimism
A pitiable existence with no alternative

Misunderstood
Rejected
Your motives were strong and fair

Absurd Conflict - Sentenced to Life

The modern medicine lead by the 'humanists'
To save life at any cost, advanced technology preserves life
despite the countless deformations
The new-born's cry tastes of suffering though
He has to live, he's a human!
A human? Perhaps - It reminds me of one.
The cost of life is too high

Sentenced to life

Sparkless eyes falter among four walls
He knows every inch by heart
An empty world without feeling and emotions
A life that seems to be endless

Sentenced to life, triumph of the modern medicine
Sentenced to life, baby Doe

A human? Perhaps. It reminds me of one.
The cost of life is too high

A paralysed mind trying to connect
Several subjects into a whole
The eternal emptiness swallows
This soulless puppet

A lifelong dependency on various medicine
An endless therapy pricked in veins
Common things are out of reach
Questions that have no answers

Sentenced to life :

A human? Perhaps. It reminds me of one.
The cost of life is too high

A human? Perhaps. It reminds me of one.
The cost of life is too high

A paralysed mind trying to connect
Several subjects into a whole
The eternal emptiness swallows
This soulless puppet

A lifelong dependency on various medicine
An endless therapy pricked in veins
Common things are out of reach
Questions that have no answers , have no answers