JOE BUDDEN – Ordinary Love Shit Pt. 3 (Closure)

I finally found a passion I lacked before
I cant believe I didn’t catch you under the act before
I mean I voiced my complaints. That went ignored
A few things you felt that you was too attractive for
Cuz everythin out your mouth said that you aint wanna hurt
Lead a lifestyle we lived..but you aint wanna work
So I’d sit you down and say its gettin outta hand
While you shoot down every idea, busy worried about a brand
When ya baby dad said all that shit that was trife
How you was married, requestin dick pics from Lyfe
Though it all seems Shady, maybe I was crazy
I ignored my gut feelin, nah not my baby
Accusin’ me, but pretendin’ yourself
I couldn’t catch it, too busy defendin’ myself
Or was I wrong not seein’ a life without you
Or takin’ everythin’ that you said to face value
When you packed up and left dude, I was so glad
Should of questioned how you easily became a nomad
If I could do it all again, it wouldn’t of happened so fast
And it burns with every line jotted in this note pad
Cuz at first you resembled my twin
Fast forward, you gave me identical twins
But then you lost it, honestly that merked my soul
Cuz tho we weren’t tryna have one, we got off the birth control
And we was right back at it, fuckin like addicts
While you was disruptin’ what was seemin like a marriage
You never got embarrassed, interrogatin’ me but that was just Yaris
Yeah we beefin’ I dragged you off the bed
I swear to this day I re-enacted in my head
So I held you up, wasn’t what I aimed to do
I aint attack you, Bitch I was restrainin’ you!
But you was wifey, though I understand it was not a game
Could you imagine my surprise when the cops came
Handcuffed me..you pressed charges
But I made bail its just heartless
You cant smash my laptop on the wall
And then think I wasn’t gonna react, scratch that
Man you cant call my mom like can I crash at your spot, whaddup
When I’m her son and you just locked me up
But wait..this is where it really gets deep
Judge said she gets control of the house for a week
Filed a restrainin order so she couldn’t come near me
The fuck else I do but go right back to Tahiry
I’m sleepin on her couch, not discussin shit
Starign at the fattest ass not fuckin it
I guess despite everythin that she showed me
It felt good to be around a broad that really knows me
I missed all the arguing and yappin’
Percocet and muscle relaxers in a napkin
Cant believe that it happened
I lost my unborn daughter when we fought
I’m thinkin I killed Aspen!
And that’s when I thought that we’d be dead awhile
But we decided to reconcile
Im so hungover from love and what not
How could you not expect us to take another shot
But durin’ all this time we dont live together
Stupid me thought that you would go get your shit together
You know..get a job or if acting’s your career
Seems you’ve persued the shit for a year from right here
And it appears, along with all the yellin’ and the screamin’
We both at the table, but my side is leaning
But rather than end it, we tried to mend it
Fuck bein a couple, lets work on friendship
But then it got weird, I was stunned from that
You took it to a place where there was no coming back
Off my last break up, I was able to stomach that
2 weeks removed and you fuckin with a running back
Life is in shambles, disguised as a damsel
Lies are a handful
bouncin’ offa different guys lookin scrambled
Despised how it was handled
But when you aint got a dime, why not decide to gamble
Said you’d be in L.A doing business
I’m thinkin that’s great, I cant fault her
Said that you would be with Jennifer the whole time
But you probably didn’t think that I would call her
She said she ain’t seen you since you landed
And for days she been blowin up your phone like a stalker
And all I could do is laugh at myself
As I thought, why is ol’girl suckin up Derrick Ward for?
Said we was makin it right, but you couldn’t!
On the phone, I said skype, but you wouldn’t!
The puzzle starts comin together and its brutal
Won’t skype, gmail chat, wont oovoo
The whole time I’m noticing you acting unusual
And I cant figure out who the fuck your being true to
Said the Wifi was down in the tele
But you aint say that you was at hotel his house!
Lookin like a groupie
Or maybe I misunderstood when you said yall 2 was makin a movie
Lookin at the shit pile I stepped in again
And to top it off your hoe ass is pregnant again? Not again!
I been through the world so I suck it up
Its less about the lie more about the cover up’s
So you busted, but your adding to the friction
Cuz you deny it all but you do it with conviction
So you talkin to me real disparaging, so what attitude
Coming off arrogant
If I wanted a trophy wife, then you could be
But all it looks like is that you rentin out pussy
Less about you, nah you aint the one
You grown, you got choices, I’m worried about your son
That’s what got me up being an insomniac
Lil nigga cant control how his mommy act
As for me, I’m tryna flush you out my system
So I counter by filmin all my sexual encounters
Mentally not there while I’m screwin
And I only keep going cuz thats what your doing
I’m tryna see, hows it done, hows it possible
Enough 2 put a weak nigga in the hospital
Starin at one ex, talkin about another
But this one would kill if it meant I wouldnt suffer
But she takin lil shots, Im getting ridiculed
Cuz all she complained about, I went and did with you
Said she knew it wouldn’t last when I lived with you
She’s not ya type, she aint got the right hips for you
So you try and take somethin for pain, it dont work
You still feelin all the novocaine dont work
Nope so we good, I dont let it get me down
Not a pussy that good, not a titty that round
For anything to work, yall trust is a must
And I learned, gotta let a Mutt be with a Mutt
So I dead that bitch and tho the shit’s been over
Some situations dont end without Closure